How I see the world

It’s been a while since I wrote about my feelings. I don’t usually share what’s on my mind.

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I still dont know how to feel. For me, it’s not awkward but…

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Have you ever loved someone for a long and afraid to show it? I have. It’s not that I don’t love her, its just that wasn’t the right time for me. I took time for myself to figure things out. When I came back, I never expected. I was two minutes too late. Who could ever thought… I thought she could wait forever. I got over it for a while. Found someone new… but just as friends.

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I wish I could say that I’m happier than before but I can’t. All I’m sure of is I’m smarter than I was then. I grew up. I learned to never rush things. But there’s this little heartbeat saying that I should find someone else.

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I found someone… someone who makes me think of her before I sleep, someone who makes me nervous when she’s around, the one who I want to see everyday.

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I still look back. I still miss what almost was before. I wanted to return to fix everything. But do I know too much to return?

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All I know is now I want to stay with you. But you’re happy now. And I don’t know what else I could do… I wish I could love my new one, but she thinks of us as friends.

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I’m a loser when it comes to love. But nobody is perfectly good at it, right?

 I’m an idiot. I shouldn’t have let her go. Someone once told me

if you lost something, it’s not meant for you.

I guess she wasn’t meant for me.

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But why do I still care? Maybe because I still do…. or i don’t know what else.

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I was trying to find the words but I can barely say.

February 20th

I bought The Fray’s 3rd album, Scars and Stories. Awesome stuff! Everything so brand new. It’s definitely a great album. I never thought they’d take it to the next level!

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Tracks:

1. Heartbeat (3:40)
2. The Fighter (4:19)
3. Turn Me On (3:02)
4. Run For Your Life (3:58)
5. The Wind (4:14)
6. 1961 (3:52)
7. I Can Barely Say (4:20)
8. Munich (3:57)
9. Here We Are (3:31)
10. 48 To Go (3:22)
11. Rainy Zurich (3:48)
12. Be Still (2:48)

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My personal favorite from the album is “I Can Barely Say”. It say’s so much. It’s about loving someone you once had. I can really relate to it. The lyrics were strong and striking. The melody was soothing that I cry every time I listen to it. The song is mostly played with piano and orchestra. Listen to this song and speak for your self. I think you’ll agree too.

What’s your favorite song on the album?